Content(ment)

What. is. this.? Webster (yes, yes, I am starting with this) says, it is to be in a state of peaceful happiness. And or one is satisfied with a certain level of achievement, good fortune, etc. not wishing for more.
Ok, good.  Webster this is a good place to start, thank you.


I am unsure if we as humans are ever able to attain a state of peaceful happiness or satisfaction for an extended period(s) of time. It's kinda like in the song, "I can't get no, satisfaction." I think at just the right moments we have contentment within our reach or have hold of it, it seems to last seconds in the lifetime we try to really hold/find it. Why? What does it mean? Or is it true that we can't find satisfaction or better yet to be content?


These past weeks, being content has been something that really hit my heart.  True contentment; peace, happiness, satisfaction- not constantly wishing for more, passion, love and trust in God. 


Having this realization has opened me up, or as one friend put it, I have blossomed (once again). Friends and family have even noticed, saying things like, I have a glow about me and I look less anxious! Which for me has added to the wow factor of giving up control and finally allowing God that control, so that I can relax. It's pretty much amazing. 


I would say that I have been anxious about life for quite some time. I know this might sound silly. But I am what my fam likes to call me a 'futureistick' thinker. I will take one thought and think it completely through before anything ever happens. Now, I understand that there is strength in this, but there is also weakness. Over thinking everything= not a good. It leaves you anxious- practically all the time. 
And where it might sound impossible to give all that over thinking up, it's not. Ok, well I will be realistic, most all of it up. The nature of life and safety and what have you, causes us to think about outcomes for obvious reasons. 


But to fully let it go, is such a freeing feeling. And I think, how can anyone not want this? How can having things, possessions and such be such a driving force in our lives? Because this feeling is something that I am willing and wanting and working to hold on to. I am tried of being anxious- it's getting me little to no where, with lots of frustrations and annoyances. 


And I like the newer me, I like the change. It is definitely God, it is definitely good, it is definitely something I am serious about committing to. 




I have more to share on this topic, but for now, think about your life. Are you content?